I tested positive for Covid. Oxygen levels dropping, severe breathing complications, lung infection increasing led me to 4 hospitals, 14 specialists, and an ultimatum from the doctor for being alive for just 24-48 hours after a constant battle to claim my life for 62 days! My suffering didn’t stop, next, I developed a fungal infection in my nose that worsened my complications. While my family was trying to sort treatment delays, insurance issues, papers, formalities, I was being acquainted with the idea of my own death. One of the biggest hassles for my family was to arrange for funds for my treatment when my cashless insurance claim was rejected unfairly.
I cannot describe what I felt at that moment. The continuous stress, while I was fighting for life, made me see so many unseen challenges. I realized how it impacted my will to live. It was extremely overwhelming. The reality hit me hard, of how much I was due to take care of, for my own self, for my family. It was this sudden moment that made me find all the strength I had left in me. I prayed for more time to settle it all before I go. It was nothing less than miraculous that I survived- so said the doctors too.
After coming back home, I was not the same person. I remember how one day, I suddenly felt my sight going blurred, leading to a vision loss, adding more complications to my road to recovery. While I gained my sight back, this entire experience also gifted me with my life’s vision.
To relieve anyone who is suffering, to assist the ones who are grieving, to be by their side and allow them to only be in that incomparable pain. I became comfortable with the idea of death, the idea of being prepared, any day- as a matter of fact so that when it’s time, I have it all sorted for my loved ones.
Believ is a channel through which I am bringing my life’s purpose to help anyone who has ever needed it and has struggled to find the right support, resources, and faith. Through all of these experiences, empathy has been my biggest takeaway. I have never been able to resonate with fellow human suffering the way I do today. I intend to streamline things for anyone who is grieving so that all they have to do is be with their loved one’s memories when it’s all that they have.
From mental health support to legal advisory, I want to spread the right information around mortality so that no one is taken advantage of in times of deep personal crisis. I also want to work with NGOs and both private and government crematoriums to build a relatively hygienic and safe environment for the ground staff and visitors. My sole aim remains to enable the families left behind to make the right decisions and have support through Beleiv to navigate through the complete process and protocols around death.
